Our Life Lately...
Hello lovely Reader,
I've never done this before, but I need to update on our life and I quite actually do not have the mental or physical stamina to write a coherent explanation of what has been happening.
I did however try to keep our family over on Instagram informed in semi-real time, so I've decided to just post screenshots of what I explained over there. We have surgery for Grant tomorrow and I had another night of insomnia, only catching five hours of broken sleep. I think the stress is taking a toll at this point...
I just tried to type up a "Reader's Digest Version" of everything but I keep repeating myself and being confusing, or over-explaining unimportant details, so I think I'll just say this: my husband got injured in a car crash while on duty two weeks ago. He is having surgery tomorrow, and he is in a lot of pain. My grandfather passed away the day after the accident, so I've also had to be busy with family and funeral things, not to mention mourning and processing. Unfortunately as well, the day after my grandfather's funeral, I was bit on the hip by a Great Dane Black Lab mix while biking with my children. It was a random attack from a dog who had escaped its house and I had to go to Urgent Care to see a doctor. I have a horrible wound from it, as the dog pierced through my jeans and punctured my skin, but by the grace of God, I didn't fall off the bike and was able to get home okay.
Because of the accident, I've had to take on double the responsibilities as a wife and mother, which is difficult with a 2-and-a-half-year-old and an 18-month-old. I have my community surrounding me and we've had so much love and support from family, friends, coworkers, and church members that I truly don't feel alone. I'm just exhausted.
And quite honestly, I don't feel the same. Every time I drive somewhere I have horrible anxiety that someone is going to drive into my lane and crash into me. But I have no choice but to drive everywhere because my husband can't drive. I have to do all the errands for us and drive us when we need to go somewhere, and I've never been afraid of driving, so it's awful. And I used to love walking around my town with my dog or stroller but I haven't walked or biked since the bite because I just have a wave of feeling like I'm going to get attacked.
Anyways, I can sense myself beginning to ramble, so I'm just going to add the screenshots of what I shared on Instagram as well as some news articles to give you a bigger picture. I may yet write out a more coherent blog post in the future, but this is all I can offer you guys right now. I apologize, but I also appreciate you all for understanding. I know you will-- you ladies always seem to.
I took the weekend off after the accident and my grandfather's death, but wanted to make a post for Father's Day, so I'll just go ahead and share what I updated IG about.
MICHIGAN STATE POLICE CRUISER CRUSHED IN CRASH, MULTIPLE SERIOUS INJURIES ------------>>>>> www.wzzm13.com
TRIGGER WARNING: FOOTAGE OF THE CRASH
We spent some time in the hospital with his partner who had surgery to his foot and knee, but he is discharged now and recovering at home. His prognosis is a 1 year recovery to full capacity.
I took the rest of the week off to focus on the visitation and funeral and helping Grant, but then updated a few days later after the bite.
I took a break to work on the vlog, mourn, heal from the bite, and help Grant get things going for his scans and surgeries, and then posted the following update just yesterday:
So that is pretty much all of it... I truly haven't had a chance to process everything, but I wanted to keep you guys updated. Sorry again if it doesn't make sense. It doesn't really make sense to me either to be honest lol.